[ She breathes out softly, squeezing her eyes shut, forcing herself to - try. To be okay. ]

I'm trying. I don't want him to be disappointed.

[ They've promised to be together in the future, haven't they? But what if he changes his mind? What if Jean does? There are so many other people here, so many - she bites her tongue, almost literally, forcing herself to breathe out. ]

I know he's upset, that I won't kiss him, that we're not together like that, but I... I can't.