[ and as terrible as alex was, without him, would dolph know love at all? and he's afraid that deep down, the nature of his love was the same as alex's. torrid and poisoned. it's not and he knows it intellectually. but the grief in his bones is crying today.
he wasn't ready. he'll never be ready. he has to hope. he's so tired. he wants a life and a future. he's already interred. it's so much to reconcile. ]
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[ and as terrible as alex was, without him, would dolph know love at all? and he's afraid that deep down, the nature of his love was the same as alex's. torrid and poisoned. it's not and he knows it intellectually. but the grief in his bones is crying today.
he wasn't ready. he'll never be ready. he has to hope. he's so tired. he wants a life and a future. he's already interred. it's so much to reconcile. ]
Can I be with you today? Please?