[His voice is broken, weak - but there's anger too. The gritting of teeth, the clenching of fists against Jean's back. He wants to kill him - kill that stupid bastard in the most painful way possible. He wants Reiner to feel how it felt to watch Eren's mother be eaten alive. He wants to rip him apart from the inside out. He wants him to suffer.
[And he wants him close. He wants things to be the way they were. He wants that big brother feeling back; Reiner was the closest thing he had. He wants to see him as a hero, not a villain. He wants none of it to be true.
[At Jean's question, he shrugs miserably.]
I don't know. Who cares? It doesn't matter. [It's beginning to feel like nothing matters anymore.]
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[His voice is broken, weak - but there's anger too. The gritting of teeth, the clenching of fists against Jean's back. He wants to kill him - kill that stupid bastard in the most painful way possible. He wants Reiner to feel how it felt to watch Eren's mother be eaten alive. He wants to rip him apart from the inside out. He wants him to suffer.
[And he wants him close. He wants things to be the way they were. He wants that big brother feeling back; Reiner was the closest thing he had. He wants to see him as a hero, not a villain. He wants none of it to be true.
[At Jean's question, he shrugs miserably.]
I don't know. Who cares? It doesn't matter. [It's beginning to feel like nothing matters anymore.]