It was . . . the safest I had ever been. I didn't know how warm it could be, wrapped in someone's arms.

[ and once he had that, it was the only thing dolph ever wanted. for alex to hold him, forever and ever. if alex had asked him to sacrifice himself for that, he probably would have. in a heartbeat. or an arm and an eye.

but he didn't. dolph sometimes wonders why. ]

He fucked it up. He chose that. He didn't choose me.