[ Jeans fingers tighten a little where they hold Eren's. He wants to sit up, turn around, and take Eren into his arms properly.

He doesn't for a second want Eren to think he's pulling away though, either.

So he stays in place. He finds Eren's other hand with his own free one and twines their fingers together there, too. ]

Maruki once told me you can't quantify hurt in terms of who's is worse.

[ His tone is soft, raw. ]

We asked you for the impossible, and ignored when you told us you couldn't do it. That wasn't fair to you.

If it's selfish, then let's be selfish.

I'm sorry, Eren.

[ He didn't mean to, but he makes no excuses. Instead, he kisses Eren's knuckles. ]

I know who you are, now. I love you.