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[neighsaying]

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[neighsaying]

[ It's a fair question, though it does makes Jean open his eyes, looking at Dolph worriedly. Then he smiles, a little, and reaches up to curl his hands against Dolph's face, mirroring him. ]

I didn't say I had it all. Just what I wanted back home. I don't want to give you up either, and maybe that makes me selfish, but I don't care.

[ Let him be selfish, for once. ]

I wouldn't trade you for something or someone else at all.

[laserhawk]

[ that's what he needed to hear and he relaxes slowly, pressing a kiss to the pulse point on jean's wrist. ]

Neither would I.

[neighsaying]

[ He sighs softly. ]

I know I can't make promises about whether or not we'll end up back at home. But I'm not Alex, or Livio. You're important to me and no offer is going to change that.

[laserhawk]

Maybe it's better not to make promises.

[ he's not sure he could take it anyway. too many broken promises. ]

[neighsaying]

[ Jean smiles a little bit. ]

Then I'm just telling you - I'll choose you, if I get a choice.

[laserhawk]

[ dolph cradles his face before leaning in to kiss him softly. ]

[neighsaying]

[ Jean returns the kiss. He slips his fingers through Dolph's hair, closing his eyes. ]

I want to give you nice things. I want to make you happy.

[ He murmurs it against his lips. He doesn't say that Dolph is a good person, or that he deserves those things - just what Jean wants for him. ]

[laserhawk]

I . . . want to be happy.

[ he wants to know what that's like. he wants to hold onto it. he wants it to be real and not a lie. he just isn't confident in his ability to give it to others. to find the shape of it and hold it close. ]

I want you to be happy too.

[neighsaying]

Being with you makes me happy. I know that's sappy but - it's true.

[ A different way than Mikasa and Eren. With them, it's the chance he never had, to be with them. His attraction to Dolph isn't a last-chance longing. It developed on its own, through cooking lessons and gifts. He doesn't know a lot about Dolph, considering what he just learned; he wants to put in the effort to find out about it.

He wants him to be safe, but now he knows, like Eren and Erwin, that might never truly happen. ]

You don't have to be happy all the time, we both know that's not possible. But if I can make you smile or laugh... that's a good start.

[laserhawk]

Jean. I chose you because you do make me happy.

[ he takes jean's hand, squeezing the top of his knuckles. ]

And sappy is . . . fine. It's all new to me anyway. Which you've probably realized.

[neighsaying]

Oh. I mean, I thought so but -

[ It's different, to hear it. Mikasa has said it plainly too and it caught him off guard in the same manner. His smile goes from sad to a little happier, a little dopier. ]

It's not like there's a rulebook to this kind of thing. We just do what feels good.

[laserhawk]

[ dolph relaxes, relieved that jean is smiling. he knows he's not good at bringing out of people. ]

That sounds simple.

[ not bad, just . . . simple. can it really be like that? ]

[neighsaying]

[ Sometimes it isn't simple, and they both know that. Jean is determined not to be the downer here, so he smiles wider. ]

It doesn't need to be complicated.

[laserhawk]

. . . Okay.

[ he presses a kiss to jean's knuckles before laying his cheek upon them. ]

my HTML!!

[neighsaying]

[ Jean lays his head down on his bed, so he can look at Dolph easier, still smiling. ]

Thank you - for giving me a chance.

shh we don't see it

[laserhawk]

[ dolph reaches out to comb his fingers through his hair with a hum. he feels that is his line. perhaps they're more similar than he thought, just making their way through.

maybe there's hope for dolph yet. ]

You're welcome.