[Everything really is different, isn't it? Eren's felt himself slowly changing over the past ten months, but he hadn't expected Jean to do the same. He's glad Eren wasn't alone - doesn't seem all that bitter about it as far as Eren can tell. Eren was bitter. Angry at Jean for things that both of them were complicit in, angry at himself, angry that not losing Reiner meant never getting to feel Jean's arms around him again...
[Jean's kindness is hard to swallow. It would almost be easier if he were angry, fed up, ready to cut all three of them out of his life forever. Then Eren wouldn't have to feel his heart reaching across the table like this. He wants them both. Fuck. Hasn't he always? Having Jean around will be hard. Sharing a child with him without being able to kiss him, hold him, lie with him - it feels impossible to imagine. But it's what they have to do. It's what they will do. For her.]
It's like I said, Jean...
Reiner wants you to be a part of this. We've already talked about it.
He knew you might come back with me. It's...how it should be.
[As for the coffee...]
We'd take coffee. Yeah. [He tries to smile - can't quite get there. He looks positively exhausted.]
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[Jean's kindness is hard to swallow. It would almost be easier if he were angry, fed up, ready to cut all three of them out of his life forever. Then Eren wouldn't have to feel his heart reaching across the table like this. He wants them both. Fuck. Hasn't he always? Having Jean around will be hard. Sharing a child with him without being able to kiss him, hold him, lie with him - it feels impossible to imagine. But it's what they have to do. It's what they will do. For her.]
It's like I said, Jean...
Reiner wants you to be a part of this. We've already talked about it.
He knew you might come back with me. It's...how it should be.
[As for the coffee...]
We'd take coffee. Yeah. [He tries to smile - can't quite get there. He looks positively exhausted.]
Don't sleep much these days.